Wednesday, November 12, 2014

What's with.....

What's with a name?
To the point that a single name can thrust the heart like a blade
That the very sound of it signals hurt
and potentially fear

Fear of lost
Fear of hurt
Fear of being broken

What's with the heart
That in the very mention of a name started to cry
Despite the fact that it may not mean a thing
The heart simply doubts that it might mean everything
That somehow at the very sound of a name
the heart crumbles
The world that house it shatters

Like sharded pieces of mirrors

To a thousand pieces

What's with hope
That despite the hurt and the fear
Still house faith
And in faith this fragile heart clings

What's with a name?
That name hurts

They say a heart loves when its susceptible of being hurt
But who could have known that all it needs
is one single mention of a name.


Monday, November 10, 2014

Me and the day I browsed through my picasa web album

Do you know that all the photos posted in blogger blog post goes straight to your picasa web album? And that from time to time, should you decide to share,edit, tag, comment or delete those photos - you can do it via picasa web album?

I always knew it is there. But there was never a need to edit the photos I posted till recently. Almaklumlah - these days people tend to google other people at the very moment something piques their interest and a few friends of mine brought about a couple of photos that were posted about 7 to 8 years ago in my blog. 

Personally, I don't even care about those photos. So when it came about I said takpe - I can always remove them.

Anyways - I got almost 2000 photos posted over the past 7 years. From favourite food, to vacays, to outings with friends, reunions, weddings - my life is nothing short of colorful and lively.

I realise that there's nothing lacking in my life - and that I am surrounded with a lot of beautiful and loving people. Despite all my rantings and qualms over how depressing and stressfull my life could have been - I couldn't help but be awed over how happy I looked in each and every photographs.

And how happy all my friends and family are around me.

Perhaps its about time for me to start developing my photos and put it around the house.

Simply to remind me that I am blessed.

And so that I shall not forget about it.

Winks.

Have a good week ahead peeps. If the blues is hitting you at the moment - perhaps flipping those old photois of yours might take the edge off.

xoxo.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

On fake people

The thing about people is.....you can never shut their mouth.

No matter what you do, or whether they know you (or not!), people talk.

Some even louder than the others.

At times, its even competitive sport.

I try my best to be kind to others. Think positive. To not judge. Spread positivity. But sometimes what I do don't matter.

They still judge.

They still talk.

Even when they don't know you.....they find some sort of amusement in talking behind your back, belittling what little you have - trying to justify a lot of things against what things that they think should have had been or had happened.

And there are times when I think I didn't care.

Ok seriously I shouldn't have cared.

But its been a while since I met fake people. The kind that pretends everything is all rosy and dandy in front of you and seriously talk shit behind your back. 

Sigh.

Lets stop pretending la kan - I won't be pissed pun if I had known that person to be such from day 1 - tapi since incident ni macam like kes talam dua muka plus it came from someone who are not first tier friends - I can to think like apa ni....diorang ni takde life ke?

Yang all of a sudden seronok nak put my life under scrutiny?

Anyways, people like these will never be happy as they stomped on happiness of others. So I shall waste my time no more.

I wish you light and may you be bestowed in whatever kind of happiness you deserve.

As for me at least now I know. 

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

And so it happens......


....that the one that I have been waiting for has finally came knocking at my door.

*smile*

It has been surreal but he truly do make me happy. And at peace. He was not an easy person to understand at first, but doors were open, and roads paved. A few months later here we are....

....at a turning point.

And we are taking the turn together.

Hopefully all goes well till the big day itself. Once again I am filled with big dreams and hopes.

Thanks baby. Only God knows how much my heart is filled with love for you. And blessed your soul because you make me feel all warm and fuzzy and complete. 

Much love. And many more to come.

Bear with me people. You must be ready to puke by now, hahahaha, but who cares. I'm over the moon and back - and that's what matters.

xoxo.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

:P

I have been doing laundry all day.

Folding laundry to be exact.

Gosh. I have so many clothes. I can't believe it. I spent hours folding and I am still on to it. Penat okay. I still have loads to do, and I don't seem to have the time to do it. Sobs.

Work has been crazy. I wish I could blab about it. But I am just too stressed out to do so. All the signs of stress is apparent - the over-eating, the popping zits, the dandruff - soon there'll be massive weight gain, fatigue and depression. I felt like my emotions are running wild and patience running thin lately. Sangat tak stabil.

But then what to do?

Life's a wheel. This wheel is at its low end at the moment.

On the other hand....

A good thing is coming my way next weekend.

My silver lining.

Can't wait.

*winks*

Laters. Nite.