Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Study milestone 2015

Have I ever told you I have been dreading my study commitments lately?

Hmmm. Maybe. Maybe not.

Fact is I have somehow lost my sense of purpose after hitting my 3rd years in the program. This January marks my fourth year of the expected 4 and half year course (or maybe 7 years - max - depending on how well I'm to do it) and I don't feel the slightest of motivation. 

Sigh. Apa lah nak jadi dengan kau ni labu.

I suppose work commitments had somehow damper my interest in studies and I am just too exhausted too think anymore. And doing this paper requires me to think (obviously!). Being exhausted, fatigued, stressed at the same time is not helping either.


Last semester was quite a drama. Once I have submitted my paper I just shut my eyes and mind and decided to just not think too much about it and enjoy the year end. Sure, there were post follow up after my submissions to do because apparently more work is needed but I just couldn't care less.

So I ignored all emails.

But deep inside I felt a pang of guilt and regret. I know I am not giving my 100%. I know I could do better. But I am just not up for it. I don't even have the time for it. What does that make me? 

I almost thought that I'd fail the paper for sure. Results were announced the week of my return from my holiday trip and I didn't even bother to check - dreading the inevitable and delaying the knowledge to the very last minute.

Until I got an email from my faculty today informing me of this semester's deadlines. Oh jeez. Nak tak nak I gotta do something about it, I can't just fake ignorance forever.This is something that will not get away.

So I checked my results.

Alhamdullillah. Passed.

All the drama, the worry....for nothing.

Not exactly.

Now that I can move on to the next stage, I feel even more worried.


Gotta calm down and believe that I can do this. I have gone through similar situations before. I never gave up. I shouldn't start giving up now.


Chin up. Think good thoughts. And do my best.

Here's to another year!


Tuesday, January 13, 2015

New Year - 13 days late but still....its a new year. :D

Happy New Year Peeps!


I closed 2014 with a trip to London/Paris and sumpah lepas balik dari the 2 week long trip tu I am exhausted. Nevertheless I had fun! Loads! I gotta say that two cities is somewhere I can live in - the air, the coffee , the laid backness, the culture - I gotta say the place is beautiful and I wish I can stay longer.

And that coming from a sunny beach bum is something. 

Not to say I never complaint about wanting the sun. I wish there were more sun (of course!). Obviously, despite my newfound love towards the city , I will definitely die in the cold if left there too long.

Sangat khatulistiwa aku ni.

I came back with a 3 day jetlag, spent the whole weekend sleeping and an ear infection.

Sakit okey. Hence the hiatus. And the unpacked bags still screaming for me to tend to (or more like a bunch of  ruins left in my living room). I got a hole in my wallet/purse - these two cities are far from cheap plus there are no interval cities in between to hedge the expenses. But then its okay. I don't know when I'll get to do this again given the big plans I have for this year.


This year's resolution is no resolution! Senang nye hidup - macam takde objektif. Carry je la resolution tahun lepas. Try to lose 20 kilos (oh tingginya angan-angan). Live healthy. Exercise more often. Try and practice yoga consistently. Try not to gain so much weight sampai baju kerja semua tak muat (fact!). Keep a religious beauty regime. Drink more H2O. Be kind. Spread light.

Biggest challenge this year is to make it to the wedding day in August. Kalau ikut resam cerita 2 broke girls - my wedding fund is at less than 1k at the moment and the wedding budget is definitely more than that. I have about 7 months to save enough to throw a kenduri, plan a wedding and make sure I don't bust my budget (because whats important is life after the wedding aite?). Before I leave fort my holidays I have been doing some digging for ideas and whatnot, having a pinboard on pinterest sure is fun.

Like it. Find something it too just in case.

Pin pin pin.

So far I have created about 4 different boards on wedding related matters and been pinning for weeks.


Anyways if you guys wanna play guess what zuraida is gonna have on her wedding day perhaps you would like to visit my pinboards for clues.

Just kidding.

I haven't even decided on a theme color yet but I roughly plan to kill my to-do list as I go on this next 7 months. So far I have kick-started a few stuff - decided on the wedding venue (which most likely be switched back to my hometown - sorry kiddos, that month sangat la banyak wedding kat KL ni sampai the date I wanted is snapped since last 2014), came up with a budget that is currently worrying me (and will potentially be a nightmare of sorts, but I am holding my chin up and looking at the bright side),  picked my wedding cake (oh yes! thats a silver lining I love since I got gateuxlicious *grin*) and decided if I have extra money I will upgrade my wedding cake (ha! mimpi!). Over the next month I need to see the tailor, scout a wedding organiser for the event day (pelamin and whatnot), scout for favours - and the list goes on. I suppose by March I should at least have about 40% of the planning done and the rest to roll in motion so that I won't rush towards the end because got knows how crazy my schedule could get at the very last minute and I hate it if I need to rush through things like a mad woman!


Anyways enough wedding talk. I don't wanna bore you....since this is like the second time we are at this. Last we did this a couple of years back I almost turned into a bridezilla in which hello hello I have so learned from my past and I vow not to get too carried with it anymore.

What happens, happens. Yang penting at the end of the day all is done.  I am just hoping for the best, since orang kata nak buat benda baik - hopefully God will ease the whole process till the big day itself.

Guess what?

Tomorrow's already mid week. Weehoo!!! 3 days to the weekend!!!!



Monday, December 15, 2014

Movie marathon

I watch a lot of movies last weekend.

And when I say a lot - I meant a lot. On top of the two movies we caught in cinema this weekend, we went home to Horrible Bosses 2, This Is Where I Leave You and One Million Dollar Arm (awesome, must watch!).


Things had been slowing down at work and its the semester break in school. So yeah, I finally get to take a deep breathe and just kick back and relax. Spent the last couple of days of last week (from Wednesday to Friday) clearing up working files, replying pending emails, unclutter my table and do some wedding planning - I just have to say wedding planning is so not for the weak hearted and I don't think I can do it myself but what the heck, I still have about 8 months or so to go and insya-allah, with the help of experienced bride friends who had gone down the isle and manage to pull it off, I suppose I can just scream help and an entourage will come my way.

*Winks. And hoped for the best*

Since I finally get to get a weekend off then I decided to just catch up with Manisnya Cinta di Cappadocia (MCDC) - I wanted to watch it so bad last Thursday anyway - having to choose between that and Paddington and feeling all blue and torn apart after watching the trailer - so I dragged my fiance back to TGV and insisted that he came by and watch it with me.

He agreed. Only if I watch Gone Girl with him.

Okay. No biggie. I'm all game. 

MCDC is so sweet!!!!!

I never read the book, so I came in with no expectation. Lisa and Fazura combo is so sweet, my fiance thought is a bit too much. Lantak la. I was gleefully laughing throughout the movie and that is such a feel good factor. Watching Rafidah on screen as Fazura's bestie brings in good memories from the Gol & Gincu days. And I think kalau Shaheizy Sam takde nak pikat Fazura pun I am still gonna be so into this movie sebab its like an overall good chick flick to watch.

My fiance on the other hand didn't agree. He says the script is not as good as Istanbul Aku Datang and that its such a cliche that Shaheizy Sam must be a pilot.

He can't stop whining about how we girls always think of princes and pilots as our typical Mr Perfect on and on and on till I say time you tulis buku I'll make sure we break the stereotype and make Mr Perfect a doctor, lawyer or an accountant.

For all I know ahli musik pun takpe. Fiction kan.


But then kalau la my fiance ever decide to write a love story that'll be totally something. Knowing him he writes the heavy neo stuff - I belanja orang makan kot kalau all of a sudden he came up with a love story and it suddenly sells.

*oh bite me*

As agreed we watched Gone Girl after. Its a Ben Affleck movie and to tell you the truth, I had reservations. But then surprisingly I enjoyed the show and had fun guessing the the twist in plots.

Who would have known the girl would be psychotic enough to frame the husband for the murder and end up killing her ex and later walking back to the husband and expecting them to start everything all over again?

That's one bitch we should all give credit for meticulous planning and strong determination to get whatever she wants.

Its a very good movie.

Go watch them.

All in all this week is a good week at the movies....I can't wait for the Hobbits on Thursday.

Friday, December 12, 2014

Movie date night

These days, Thursday nights are confirmed movie date nights - thanks to Maybankcards buy 1 free 1 standard seats promo at TGV cinemas (no, this is not an ad, though it might sound like it). Who wouldn't want to pay merely RM14  for 2 tix? Ticket prices are so pricey off late - sometimes I can spend about RM60 per tix (oh yes, kalau kena angin gatal nak tengok jugak wayang when there's no standard/lux seats left and just YOLO and went to Indulge/Gold class) but hey, a girl's gotta save for her big day kan? Every dollar counts, so cheap movie tickets shoots me to the moon and back.


Yesterday I was torn between Manisnya Cinta Di Cappadocia and Paddington. I have to say that I am torn beyond words, its like all of a sudden I am having a "kid having to choose her favourite candy" moment. Sebab I am a die hard fan of both Fazura and Lisa Surihani - I squeal over the thought that both of them are in the same movie. Tak kisah la kalau orang kata movie tu tak best pun tapi kalau both Lisa and Fazura is there I wanna watch them. They are freaking cute. I can overdose on their cuteness and go home a happy girl. On the flipside, the furry bear from my one of my favourite childhood book character is also showing. Who wants to miss the blur old Paddington and Mr Brown's antiques?

I have been singing my marching band nak tengok Paddington the whole day then sampai sampai kat cinema, I'm like "yang, can we watch both movies?"


He looked at me with the heaviest look he ever mustered. Earlier today on the way back from work, I returned to him his work in progress manuscript with some of my thoughts on the book. Well "some of my thoughts" is actually an understatement - I have a bunch of question marks (on top of verbal que's I already asked him the day before when I browsed it next to him) and just for the fun of it, I printed the manuscript in a booklet and flagged all my comments for ease of reference.

Sebijik macam editor.

Berangan la sangat. 

So of course he got curious with all the flags and as we run through each comments, we tried making sense of some of my flagged queries and he got all hyped up to write.


....its Thursday. Its movie night. And I wanna watch Paddington.

*sing song*

And now I wanna do a marathon instead?

Gila ke apa pompuan ni? Esok tak keje?

I tried to give him my "puss-in-boots" kesian look but he kept on saying u gotta choose one.


We bought tickets to Paddington, which was a blast. It's school holidays, so the hall was filled with parents and their children. You can hear kids awe-ing over Paddy and laugh through his strings of clumsiness and unfortunate events. But paddy being paddy he's a lucky old bear. *grin*. There's always a twist that leans his way.

Oh my sungguh seronok being a kid.

It was a good movie. I totally enjoyed it. Both of us had a good laugh.

At the end of the movie he took me back to the concessionaire and said its okay if I want to watch a second movie. By then it's already 11pm, and I didn't feel like waiting for another movie any longer. So we head home.

Not before getting a pair of tickets to next week's screening of the Hobbit.

Finally! The whole middle earth story is coming to and end.

Till then!


Monday, December 8, 2014

Me and Star Wars

The weekend was uneventful.

Since it has been a long week, I spent the last weekend indoors catching up on much needed rest and sleep. I also got to catch up on pending tv series episodes from last week, which is not that much since most of the tv series is on mid-season break for xmas.

I end up doing a Star Wars movie marathon, and we manage to catch up to the end of Episode IV. I was never a big Star Wars fan - ok la, last I remember I watched it when I was a kid and that I am a huge R2D2 and C3PO fan but thats just it - I never remember the story line or made sense of the whole epic battle of the universe and whatnot.

So its natural that I don't even catch Episode I to III at the cinema.

Boohoola kan.

But then my fiance is a huge Star Wars fan.

I remember a couple of days ago he came up and told me to check oout the Episode VII trailer and I was like "okay, let me have a look" and when I did watched the trailer it crossed my mind like "oh crap, tak faham satu benda pun - tau tau semua orang is fighting with each other" which sucks because after 6 movie installments, I should get some storyline and some fun facts besides Annakin Skywalker is cute and Natalie Portman is Queen Amidala.

So I decided to catchup and download all Episode I to VI.

Hooray for technology.

As expected being the blur me I am lost at minute 15 of the first episode and being so impatient over the whole ordeal, start asking tonnes of questions in which somehow mr fiance rajin nak accomodate. Baru last thursday I blogged about his darting questions everytime he watched tv with me - over the last 2 days the table turned and I became the one asking all sorts of questions instead.

Thankfully he's very patient. Heheeh!

After 4 episodes I concluded - oh my he sure knows his Star Wars history. It 's so precise up to the recycling of every set.


Anyways, having him around saved me a lot of time trying to digest everything on my own.


Two more episodes to go before I scream bring it on Episode VII.


My lappy acted up after Episode IV perhaps retaliating that it had too much Star Wars for the week, so we stops and went for Big Bad Wolf.


So the rest kena sambung next weekend la then.

Till then.....may the force be with ya!