Thursday, August 3, 2017


Oh my - its already August. Sometimes I wish time is much slower - how do time fly so fast?

The past month must be one of the hardest month of my life. I am constantly tired. I got a bit under the weather - viral flu was going around and I sorta caught on the bug a bit and was having flu problems for about 2 weeks before it goes off but alhamdulillah its just flu. Its not a full blown lun g infection like the one I had last October. Besides, I can't afford to be that ill. I remember being in the hospital for 5 days and on a constant antibiotics drip to clear off the infection - its a total nightmare. Being on a permanent medication helps I think. So yeah, that was it.

I can't be any more miserable than I already am at the moment. A lot of things is just depressing me. I go home from work every day in tears - its practically a daily thing for the past couple of weeks. When I do get home I just got so tired I took a quick shower and went to bed. At some point I think my husband got a tad worried because to him I am crying at home everyday for no reason but I suppose even if I say anything there is nothing he can do to help. The next day everything goes on repeat.  Its a vicious never ending circle. I have to admit I feel helpless. Useless pun ada. Have I given up yet? No I haven't. I am still trying to endure and give the best that I can. But then at this point it felt like the best I can give is not enough. Sigh. So macam mana ni?

I am trying to keep calm though. Its not so good at the moment to be all depressed. I can't even medicate myself. Its bad enough I can't medicate myself for my physical pain - hence no painkillers to endure the back pain, headches, flu and whatnot - now I am emotionally unstable lagi la tak boleh so forget the anti-depressants and sleeping pills also la. Selalunya ada je solution. Now tahan je la. 

Apa la nasib.

Omg kan best kalau boleh tido.


Okay I have stuff to do. Enough crapping.


Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Back to work post raya holidays

Cuti tak lama - just took the standard public holidays and here I am, back to work on the 4th day of Hari Raya. Not that its anything out of norm. I usually let my colleagues take some extra day off after Hari Raya so that they can spend some time with their family. I'll claim mine one day when I have my own nucleus family - for the time being, I let others have their turn for a change.

I am grateful because this year I get to spend with my family back in Kuala Pilah for the first day of Raya, I have to admit I was a tad emotional inside because its the first raya without my mom. We get to the family cemetery after all the formalities are done in the early morning. It was my first time going back to my mom's grave after the funeral. It was quite a relief to see that its well tended to. There's a bit of growth here and there but nothing extreme - like some others. I felt a certain pang of sadness in my gut and said to myself I should make some time to come home more often. But then its not a good thing to dwell over it, I believe my mom wont want me to be sad.

My sister is heavily pregnant with her firstborn and I bet you think I must be joking because from the look of it, its like takde beza pun. Hahahaha. You should see her belly, Its super huge! Its like she's carrying a melon. I suddenly look thin in comparison. Well I am not that thin la. Berat sama je,

We get to visit a couple of relatives and by 2pm we're already back home all tired and sleepy. Slept till later when suddenly heavy rain fell and we are awaken to move our cars because its suddenly flooding where we parked. Oh yes, julung-julung kalinya la kampung aku yang panas kemarau tu hujan sampai banjir. Bertabah je la nak.

Here's a pic from where we use to have the tangga batu at my grandparents - tangga batu no more now tinggal that boring old sofa tempat lepak bila balik kampung.I kinda miss that tangga batu - but after my nenek renovated the upper part of the old house to lay flat on the ground, the tangga batu serves no purpose any longer. Except for tempat annual photoshoot - in which I think nenek I feels like its no longer necessary.

To some who are still on leave - enjoy the holidays! I'll be moving house on Friday so there's tonnes of packing to do. Sigh. Penat dah weyh - nasib baik la my husband so understanding dia tolong packkan everything, Barang dia 2 bag je. Barang aku 3 lori. Heheheehhe.


Friday, June 23, 2017


Its the last working day before Hari Raya and I just have to say no one is in the mood to work. I have been feeling  nauseous all morning - so lagi la takde mood kan. My hair was terrible. Rasa macam kena langgar bas. So I decided to just take some time to go to the salon and had a wash and blow sesh during the lunch break.

Thank heavens I did.


I went out feeling like a million bucks. Suddenly it felt like a huge weight was lifted and I was all happy and chirpy with my newly washed hair.

Tapi by the the time I masuk ofis balik tetiba moody balik.


Takpe la, less than an hour left to go before we call it a day and the long weekend awaits.


Selamat Hari Raya everyone. Maaf zahir batin. Have a safe journey!


Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Emergency fan problem....

My car had been acting up lately. The first time I saw red temperature blinking lights on my driver dashboard was last week on the way back from picking up my legal documents from Putrajaya. At first I thought its just out of water, so we refilled and moved on. Yesterday, whilst stuck in a jam on the way home after work, the same red blinking lights appeared and I suddenly went bonkers. I have a really bad feeling about it. Part of me is worried that my car might suddenly combust in the middle of rush hour traffic. Who knows what overheating can do. I was praying really hard for a safe journey home.

Thank God all was okay. But since its Ramadhan most workshops are closed quite early. So I decided to drop by the workshop early this morning instead.

Well thank heavens I didn't wait another day longer. Found out that my fan was no longer functioning, hence the overheating and the red blinking lights. It will take a day for the repairs to be done since they need to order the parts - and since the car is already in the workshop I got it serviced as well since it'll be due for servicing next 2 weeks anyway. 

The downside to it all is the cost of repairs. Sigh. With the moving house and new rental deposit (and raya, ehem ehem!) I definitely felt the pinch. Dah la masa baru nak kawin haritu I had to repair my engine mounting and lower arm as well which cost me an arm and a leg. 


Takpe la. Whatever it is safety comes first. Better be safe than sorry. All else hopefully will eventually work out.

Monday, June 19, 2017

Let's glitter this Raya!

Raya is just around the corner, how time flies - in a blink of an eye Ramadhan is almost over. I'm sure everyone is excited making final preparations for Hari Raya itself - making sure that everyone dress to their tee's, food ready for relatives who popped by, raya packets filled with new notes for the young ones. Its my first year celebrating as a wife, I think I have gone a bit overboard making sure my husband has a matching baju raya. Eventhough I know it doesn't matter. But what the heck. We didn't get to do it every day so takpe la.

While baju raya hunting last weekend I popped by Sereni & Shental store at Publika (coz I am so in love with their pearls and gemstone bracelets) and found out they have a new set of goodies in store.

Lo and behold....Bowerhaus's Diamond and Pearl Collection!

*all pictures are courtesy of Bowerhaus website - you can check them out if you're interested by clicking the link* 

When I first laid eyes on them I was in awe. The collection was so pretty!!!! It was simple and so chic and it immediately screams my name.


I love the faberge bracelet (top pic) and the eye bracelet (next pic) which I immediately has a mental picture being next to my watch on raya morning.

You can layer it out with the tennis bracelet or simply use the bracelet on its own, your pick. For those who have been eyeing a tennis bracelet for day use but didn't wish to break a bank to get the one, here's a more affordable option.

If you want to splurge - do get the matching faberge earrings and necklace and make them a whole set. I gotta say they are simply divine. Pair it with a simple baju kurung moden and you're good to go - leave some imagination to the in laws to grow envy on how pretty it is.

I don't usually wear long necklaces but I do adore bracelets a lot - so since its my birthday too on Sunday, so what the heck! hahahah! (again, with the wth's). The string looks delicate so it'll make the wearer look demure (ehem ehem) but worry not it comes with a lifetime warranty so you can always get them serviced if anything happens. That one thing I like about bowerhaus, the after sales service. I always got my pearl and gemstones re-strung and cleaned after a whilea and it always makes me happy when they fix them and make them look all brand new. So far I am never dissapointed. My most beloved and treasured bracelet is the gold rutilated quartz godmother bracelet - its my biggest pride and joy.

The gold rutilated quartz was love at first sight for me. The gold dust makes my eyes glistened with joy since the first time I laid eyes on it - and since it was a bit pricey compared to the rest of the other gemstones it took me a while before I actually got one for myself. But never had I regretted having it - it's my favourite bracelet to date and I wore it diligently almost every single day. It comes in 3 sizes and the bracelet can go between RM300 to RM1,800 per piece, depending on the size. If you love pearls, they have it mixed with baroque pearls as well.

So I suppose I am all set on the accessories department next week.


What about you guys?