I think all the tears I have had dried up...and though its still pains me, I am now moving forward one step at a time. No more begging nonsense....I am psyching myself for better things in life that I can simply achieve on my own. Like....
- bungee jumping! wo!biggest fear ever!
- travelling the world! I would save my money, travel my way....and no one is stopping me....
-looking my best - the best make-up, the coolest wardrobe....and no man nagging that I somewhat overspend or shop too much or its such a waste....
That, among others.
So there's a lot to be excited about.
I am passed stage 2 of the whole breakup deal and in amidst obsessing with stuff...all lucid and demented in its own ways but mostly, I think they are fears. So I vow that this week onwards, I am going to bravely face it and get it over and done with....and hopefully I can skip "denial".
*or maybe I've done denial at stage 1 but then didn't realise it. I won't want to go through denial...it would suck!*
Anyways, cherry of the day is my newly acquired Sophie Kinsella book...
*oh so looking forward to it*
Agak timely okeh the release of the book, as if she knew I needed guidance and this is her gift to me...because she is telling the story how a girl can get her life back!
You go girl! Me love you mucho!
Though its a slight dejavu to Ghost of Girlfriend Past (coz in the book, the main character is also guided by a dead relative), I bet Sophie can take my mind off things, bring new perspective and somehow make me smile.
Another milestone today...I finally finished my lunch! Every single bite of it!
Ok, the serving is not that big. But at least I finish the whole thing....rather than makan sesuap dua je.....hip hip hooray!
My appetite has been on the low side lately that so far I have shed 3.4kgs in total...since the whole ordeal about 10 days back. There's a positive and negative side to it....but the good thing is baju i semua dah muat balik.
*In which I am oh-so-grateful!Save!Tak payah beli baju baru!...for now*
But no worries...I amtrying to eat healthily but substituting my lack of appetite to broken down small meals every 3 hours or so...which keeps my stomach a-ok.
*if this goes on steadily for another month....hahahaha...mak nanti gorjes dan ada bikini body...so sape yang menyumpah seranah badan aku awal bulan haritu sila bersedia untuk kejutan*
OKk, dah lari topik.
I better get back to work. I have a presentation to finish.