So pagi pagi dah chant mantra kat kepala "I am going to get ----- done by -----, and I am not delaying---- till tomorrow anymore" and "oops, I got to make a call to ---- ASAP so that i can cross it off my post it list".
Yeah, my desk is filled with yellow post its. Merata-rata in varying sizes. I am sick of yellow already, maybe I should go and buy those colored ones - pink, purple....ada ke?
*and can I claim back the cost? Gila ciput*
I managed to run through office work before straying to gmail and found yet another email that....
I let it slide bila dia tetiba merempan marah when I am the one who is suppose to be very stable and sangat tak emotional.
Tapi hari ni cross the line ok.
Is it so hard to understand that I need my own space? Maybe thats why some people just rather cut themselves out from the world and tak cakap to anyone when they are sad sebab kalau dia cakap sikit to sorang then the rest yang ingat dia cakap banyak mula rasa kecik hati sebab dia rasa dia tak important.
I tak label my friends. I even tak choose friends that hung out with me. I befriended everyone yang can accept me. There is no such thing as one friend outdo another, and that one friend is less important than another just because I answer one of the calls ke apa.
If I want to talk I talk. If I want to go out I go out. And friends understand that, respect that. The same applies to my friends. If they need me they call me. If they don't want to talk then I'll wait till they do. If they decline my invite to go out its okay, we can chill sometime else.
Kalau rapat macam belangkas je la baru consider kawan? Tak kira the years that you've known each other....ke apa ke? That no matter what had happen you still care about each other, and despite everything yang dah happen, and whatever material stuff in between.....you still stand around and care......itu tak matter?
Kalau kayu pengukur persahabatan tu setakat gossip, material exchanges and the frequency you hang out, and bila crisis melanda tak angkat phone sikit dah putus kenal bagai....then seriously, maybe both of us should sit down and think why we became friends in the first place.
Because seriously, aku cakap baik-baik ko kata bashing. You want a bashing, ambik. Kira baik la aku tak disclose ko sape. Nak tengok sangat aku emo, nak ambik.
Now I have to go back to work.