Friday, January 22, 2010
Retracting to my own cocoon
If anyone ever say getting over love is easy as ABC and that you can bounce back on your feet in a jiffy, you should.....
...strangle that person immediately.
Because despite best efforts, its not something easy.
Take it from me.
I indulge in work to a point I dream of work. Go out more often with friend. Try to fill the gap with as much activity I could do. Turn into a gym bug.Got a cat). I justify everything to just me,me and me and seems like I'm back on my own two feet but...
...when a switch inside me is ticked I break to a thousand pieces....again.
And I am facing it again. Alone.
Because at this point, I just felt stupid to even dwell over it. Ashamed that it still get to me to even admit it to my buddies and angry that I am not strong to face it when its more than 6 months passed.
It sucks (and idiotic) when such person can have such a big effect in your life. Even when they trashed you aside and made u feel like dump. Ages later you still feel like dump.
I have to love myself more.