We kicked off the movie night with a glass of bubble tea at little Taiwan @ Cineleisure The Curve...
I love Bubble Tea!!!! I enjoy munching the bubbles. Gila la, I took my own sweet time like a kiddo munching the bubbles one by one.
Hahahahahah! Happy sungguh!!!!
Geng Ying had dinner, but since I was still full from the big lunch at work earlier yesterday I only munched on wanton and a toast garlic bread.
I wondered why I never read Eat,Pray, love before. Maybe its one of those books that I missed in my reading list, like "How To Kill A Mockingbird" in which i have recently acquired, and yet to read. Perhaps I should add the book on my next "To read" list, because the movie is such an eye opener, I bet the book has more insights and words of wisdom.
The movie tells a story of Liz Gilbert, a recently divorced women, in search of of herself through a journey across continents in which at the end, mend her broken heart to once again believe in love. Its touching and heartfelt from the start, and in a way I felt a twinge of pain and was able to relate to her in a way or two...which almost broke me to a small quite tear.
Because yeah, deep inside, behind this strong independant girl facade is a vulnerable girl who is scared of love and trust.
Well, you cant blame me for feeling that way after going through what I went through. Eventhough its been a year, the pain is still there. Scepticism built, I tend to be more guarded of others and scared to risk knowing other people on the mere thought of possibility that it may hurt me.
I keep on making excuses in getting to know new guys and meeting them, at times, getting cold feet and bailing at the very last minute. I was talking to Shasha yesterday and she said....
"kan aku dah kata.....ko ni memang, selalu banyak 'tapi' nya....at the end orang yang suka kan ko pun lari"
Well, somewhere in between those lines.
Hmm....its scary ok. And I am not afraid to admit it, it scares the hell out of me to start get to know new people. Ye lah, you've been dating that one guy for years and thought he's your ever after....and suddenly voila, all the crap is out of your window, and you've lost all your mojo. Damn, of course its scary. What if you're not as young/hot/gorgeous like those pretty young things out there???
Do you get me?
But then perhaps I should listen to Ketut!
"sometimes you need to lose balance for love so that you can live a more balanced life"
Go watch the movie.
Learn to trust others.
Believe in love again.
And.... enjoy Dolce Far Niente ("sweetness of doing nothing")