Its not exactly rocket science. But then so much things had happened and over the years, I somewhat became a chicken when it comes to commitment because seriously, to even think about having a relationship scares the hell out of me. Not that I don't want to be in love and schmoozy and all gooey and hopefull and happy but then I can't help but think about the pain of a break up as well....
...oh yes I have serious trust issues.
But takkan nak bersendirian selamanya kan
I suppose there will be a day when I would finally be swept off my feet and that that one person will make me forget that all the pain had ever existed.
Remember the young innocent feeling when you first fell for a guy?
The only thing you ever think of is just about having fun and laugh?
I wonder when things got so complicated.
Somewhere in the past decade I had evolved to being more of a sceptic. My priorities changed. I use to be quite non-chalant when it comes to love, now I am just to carefull of a lot of things...
...in which has its pros and cons.
I just wish for someone who can finally make me feel at ease, calm my heart and share those little things in life.
Just for one person that can make simple things feel extraordinary, without even trying.
Is that too much to ask?
Or am I just to scared again, to try?