Friday, August 31, 2012

Did anybody ever tell you not to blog and eat at the same time?

Having dinner post movie marathon and it certainly sucks having dinner alone so I am with my lappy and typing my heart out....over dinner. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw all of a sudden, like at this very moment I am spilling the beans over the next "it" thing. Gila kuat berangan. *grin*

I decided that I need a day on my own to recollect my thoughts and plan out what I need to do over the next few months. Class is starting again next weekend and if I don't clean up my shit and unfinished business left lying around, God knows things are gonna be pretty messy. So far a day had gone by and I had done zero on configuring my thoughts and a lot on movie catchup, coffee and adding extra credits on my card. Jeez. Thinking is exhausting. I went on a mini break and suddenly I felt like I'm warped somewhere else and voila...time passed?


*thank you for the delicious pan seared salmon. though the patotoes taste a bit undercooked, the rest of the meal is awesome*

Starting tomorrow I am eating healthy.

I want to quick smoking. But since almost everyone around me is smoking I wonder why I even bothered. It felt like the right thing to do (considering all the health related problems people my age are facing now) but somehow I am still a 50-50 in this.

I have to start exercising again. Gaining weight is a bitch (and so we chant over and over again) and lately I have all these unnecessary energy that needs to be channeled out. And yes, I am getting slightly bored to. I am pissed with my own tardiness because I definitely know that I can do better at this tapi lazy bone is extra heavy lately.

Thanks but no thanks.

I need to..., 5 miles a day.

....swim, to work on my heart and the fat at my lower back.... yoga, to calm myself.

And in between, fit time to read for a doctoral thesis.

Thank God I have no kids. Not that I don't want them....of course I want them someday, but at least, not having them today gives me room to do things that I am doing now.

Hell yeah, alasan. I bet if I have kids now I will not be doing what I am doing now and will be a totally different person. But then is it for the best? That I will never ever know.

I need to spring clean. Especially my wardrobe (again). Was it last 3 months when I last reorganised the room, how come suddenly it felt so cluttered?

Must have been all the travel bags. I have yet to unpack. To come to think of it I will be flying again pretty soon and then there will be another luggage roaming around.


Finally! Thoughts organised!

Phewh! Who would have thought I would get it done over dinner?

Till then!

Selamat Hari Merdeka ke-55!!!

Happy Merdeka Day everyone!!!!

Another year of independance, no doubt we have achieved so much after 55 years but then there are still a lot more things to do to be at a desired state of a developed let's work together on it. Nevertheless, I am blessed and proud to be a Malaysian - more now than before - to be a part of country that provides countless growth opportunities and peace.

I am indeed a proud Malaysian - always was, still am and always will be.

On another note, do you know blogger have a max 1G storage for picasa web albums and I maxed mine?


Now how the hell am I suppose to upload more photos?

Can google give me more disk space, because today is Independance Day?

*oh wishful thinking*

Thursday, August 30, 2012

On missing someone far away

I have to say that I am not a fan of long distance relationships because distance don't usually make my heart grow fonder. To be frankly speaking, I am a women of many issues. I may be bold and upfront in getting things done but hey, relationship drive me bonkers and having your beau miles away opens room for mischief and distrust. Well fine, I have trust issues. But who doesn't?

To many, this entry might seem as a shocker but to the rest that is dear to me, I have been seeing someone for a while now. Its hard to talk about it because the thing is still new but I have been itching to ramble about it because sometimes it just drives me to the edge so I suppose I am going to have to give the anonymous writing a go. Hey, if I ramble it vague enough its just me rambling crap right? To my mom who might well be reading about this (and I have yet to tell her till now because I am not sure if this is heading anywhere and I don't want to mess her mind right now with things that are uncertain), we will talk about it when I am ready, in which right now is not it.

*so I am going to write more posts asap over the next couple of days so that this entry will push down asap. Crazy, yes. But I am crossing my fingers that I don't have to have the talk.

Back to writing....

And they say when you are miles apart communication is key. But omg its so difficult to understand when you both speak a different language (literally) and interpret things differently. And on days when either one of you just don't want to speak and the other expects otherwise, its even worse. Because there are days when I feel all chatty and clingy and all I get was.....


Ho yeah.

And when it's my turn to give him the crickets - expects a "why you put me on que?" look.

Literally speaking.

After a while I ended up being sarcastic. Or at least I tried to be sarcastic at first. Because my new man doesn't really open up that much, it simply drives me crazy when I am ignored, and so one day it hit me to just give him a piece of my mind....

Its funny how after a while, he seems to manage to read between the lines and when I am feeling a bit dissed (like in the next message...when the question of dah sampai received only a reply after what....3 hours?) and he came up with a more creative answer....


When he evolved to that how can you keep yourself mad?

And so it happens today is one of those days when I missed him like crazy (since he's been away for more than a week now...yeah bummer) and being his busy self ignores me the whole day. When he did text me much later this evening he made it brief and told me he's gonna call it a day. Was I annoyed since obviously I was expecting a "how was your day conversation"  and so I texted back "K. I had a great day. Good nite then".

Guess what he replied?

Miss u?


And guess what unfolds?

Oh my. Makin creative.

There and then my heart melts.

Tak jadi marah.


Come home soon love.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Cleaning up spaces......

Finally have the chance to work on my lil mean machine without the need to meet a deadline or actually submit something. *grin*. Its kinda liberating to sign into my blogger account and face the blogging template after such a long hiatus, I know I keep on telling myself that I would write more but never have the time to do so....same case with the rest of things in my to do list that I want to do but never get the chance to do so since earlier during the year.

Its already the end of august! Crap...8 months had flown. It flies so fast I felt like I'm drifting in time. Its a whirlwind of craziness over the past 8 months....I am definitely up if there is something better (or more exciting) out there. Keeping my fingers crossed.

As of now I am hoping for the best. New semester is starting off soon, so I am cleaning up my disk space so my lil mean machine can kick ass again. The drive is kinda full after all the research (and downloading) work. But hey, I have a 1T wireless storage at home, lets put that to use.

After clearing off spaces its time to look at photos.


Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Tuesday blues.....

Despite being under the weather....donned my new sunburst necklace from poplook over black MNG top and blazers...please excuse the messy hair.


My head felt like bursting beyond proportion as I juggled work, poor breathing abilities and massive headache. Its just one of thos days you wish you can just stay at home and pull the covers over your head but no can have work to do.


The next couple of days will be a busy period - everyone is psyched about the raya holidays but then since it coincides with the busiest reporting period in the year, its kinda not something i'm looking forward to. I hope i don't have to review accounts while buzzing about on raya day because seriously, that'll be depressing.

A lot have been happening lately. My mom had successfully gone through her second round of chemo and I would like to thank my family and friends who have extended us support and prayers over the past couple of months. Alhamdullillah my mom is doing quite well and hopefully she can brave through the next 4 sessions and recover. Thanks again for all the love....and keep them coming y'all!!!

Finally the second semester as a grad student had passed - not wthout pain- yet for now I can let all the bugs that pains me the last three month rest. To tell you the truth I was not at my best and I am really really scared that somehow one way or the other somehing might f* up but then what the point of pushing myself to far with worries?I have other priorities to focus on so might as well set whats past aside move on. I suppose i did my best with what i ha at that time, even when I know it can be done better.....but i need to let go. Sigh. Crossing my fingers and hopefully my end result will not kill me.

Phewh. Now that out of my chest let's look into good news in the pipeine.

My drling tina was in labor yesterday but dah 24 hours I haven't heard a single thing about the new baby M. Ke i missed the news? So excited to mee the new lil girl!

Yeah its a girl. :P

There will be buka puasa events non-stop from today till next wednesday....brace yourself for super makan makan mode :-) i know to some ppl all this makan makan thingy hard started since the first day of ramadhan but then i notice that as i age, my desire to eat seems to be makan makan aktiviti pun kurang.

Hell yeah. Bummer.

To come to think about it i miss my melting pot supper buddies. They are all the way in the UK and if they were here, it would have been fun to have another night bingeing on melting pot's midnight buffet with baby Irina.

Got to go back and be a productive bee....till then, much love!

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