Thursday, December 27, 2012
When I thought that I would finally find time to sit back, gather my thoughts and use the weekend to clean up and spring clean before the new year (and the new semester starts) the house just needs to be crowded again. Macam ni sampai bila pun rumah ni macam tongkang pecah sebab I don't have the space and the motivation to clean it. By the time I do have space later (that is when everyone is not around) work will be stretching me thin pulak.
Nanti cakap lebih lebih lain pulak jadinya.
So not in the mood.
4 days to new year. Hope your long weekend will be way better than mine.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Oh I miss Vin Diesel. He's super macho.
*drool...yeah I can drool. Coz nobody would bother. Lucky me. Heheheeh*
I have one more to go.
Till later peeps!
.....and a Happy New Year.
Don't over imagine okay. I could never fit is super mini skirts and go bare at the mid drifts.
Have a good break peeps. 6 days to a whole new year. A whole new mess...and opportunities a like...don't you just love how a year can unfold like mystery gifts?
Be safe on the road ok!
Monday, December 24, 2012
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Saturday, December 8, 2012
I have a feeling of being lost over this past couple of days. Out of the blue there's a wall in my head and somehow everything is difficult.
Maybe its a phase.
A friend text me saying that she wish she is as strong as I am. It surprises her how I manage to pull myself together after what have happened over the past couple of month.
I am but human. I bleed and I feel pain. Others may not be able to see the scars over all the cosmetics money can buy, but it doesn't mean it ain't there.
I am human and I bleed.
I sat for my last paper today at lost of what I was doing and couldn't even make sense of what I wrote on the answer sheet. Crap.
Perhaps what I need is a break from all this.Its good that the semester break is starting soon.
Lets all pray for change. Lets all pray for something better. And in the process, lets pray to heal.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
The past two weeks had been a mix of crazy and hecticness....it made me question what the hell I am actually doing the things I am doing right now (study, work etc) and whether its all worth it. I know, my decisions are initially made with best intentions but the turn if events that led to it was questionable...I wish I wasn't pushed by circumstances to do what I did because there is certainly a lot on my plate right now.
Guess what? Time passed so fast, I didn' t even realised that it has been 10 years since I left uni and joined the workforce. After a decade has anything changed? Hmmmm..... I can say a lot has changed. The person I know 10 years ago seems like a distant memory. But to be frankly speaking at this point I am trying very very hard not to lose myself.
But then my working hours seems to reset back to when I first started 10 years ago the moment I join my new co. In one hand the long hours helped me heal the pain I'm going through at the moment - it deinitely pulled me out of my misery - but then again I felt like I'm running around like an energiser bunny....I am just afraid I might burn out sooner tha I thought.
Of course, when venturing into the new and the unknown everything is very scary. I have to admit that I might be fearing the worse. But I am trying to reserve my thoughts till when the worse actually happened, because there is no need to panic no?
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Thanks to Shahnaz for co-organising (and putting up with my crappy work and study schedules) and my gal pals for being there. You guys made my day.