Have you ever wondered or ever had a conversation the like of this?
"Sayang, You sayang I tak?"
"Hmmm. You sayang I?"
"Kenapa? Kena ada sebab ke kenapa I sayang you?"
*dalam hati - nak kena ada checklist ka?*
*Do you have one?*
Personally I never have one. Perhaps that explains why I can not hold a relationship for that long anyway. Sebab tak fokus. Sebab tak tahu apa sebenarnya diri sendiri suka atau tak. Always bagi peluang for myself to simply know others before I decide what kind of friendship it'll be.
Tapi tak rasa superficial ke kalau ada checklist and all? I am not perfect, then why should I impose perfection on others.
Kalau tak tick the boxes then tak payah consider?
I personally felt that matters of the heart is complicated. Its easier to explain law of gravity or talk about the solar system than explain the way you feel for a person. But then should I have a reason on why I am in love with a person, I would say simply because.....
*when I talk. And I talk a lot*
"because I like it when you smile"
*eventhough sometimes you look like you are trying too hard to do so....smiling is not something naturally tattoed on your face*
"because you make me laugh"
*and yes, your jokes are not lame, even when you classify it as a stupid joke"
"because you laugh at my lame jokes too"
*because I am an accountant and my jokes are usually not that funny*
"because unknowingly, you gave me what I needed....not what I wanted"
Okay zuraida....dah deep sangat tu. Susah nak explain nanti.
Maybe I will never find the best words to explain the why. I merely hope the fact that I do love means a greater deal.
*Its Friday - for funs sake lets crack the DVD and play 10 Things I Hate About You on repeat*